#35 2014 is a New Year
I know. I suck. I haven't been very good at posting updates. I just needed to get past the holidays. It was rough this year without my dad. No one got together this year. With him being gone, I guess there wasn't a reason to get together. I made my customary visits to Troy and Randy's houses to drop off a poundcake, but I didn't go in and I didn't stay. They've got their own lives, apart from me and I don't need to interfere.
I was glad for the New Year. I did make a few resolutions, but none of them are real important.
- Get under 150lbs again
- Get back on the Mountain Bike
- Go back to Church on a regular basis
- Clean up my foul language
- Avoid any hospital stays in 2014
- Run/walk/crawl a 5K
I have managed to get under 150lbs. Strangely, that was accomplished before the end of 2013. The great thing about a bad gallbladder, you don't really want food and the food you do eat, doesn't have a habit of staying down for very long. So I went from 198lbs to 147lbs pretty quickly.
I got back on the Mountain Bike shortly after the first of the year. It was only once though. I did about 4 laps in the back field and the pain was such that I haven't been back on it. I did manage to slowly amble 6 laps on that same small track today, but was quickly benched in my recliner afterward. Oh, the pain.
I have managed to return to Church, twice so far this year. I've been taking the kids: Jackson, Olivia, and Emma, Shirley's grandkids. They seem to love it, so I continue to take them each Sunday. This past Sunday was very thought provoking for me. This month is dedicated to the Selfie, where people are interested in themselves, lover of themselves, than of God. Pretty accurate, I think.
The preacher said that most everyone comes to church, to God, because they need help or they fear something. What is it that I need? What do I fear? After thinking on it quite a bit, I think it's that I don't have a legacy to leave this earth.
A legacy!
I don't have kids. I've never done anything noteworthy like saving someone's life and I don't own any priceless art or jewelry. So how will people remember me? Will I be remembered? In 100 years, what will be said or will I fade from existence?
At first, the lack of a legacy really bothered me. I thought, "I'm nothing. I'm a nobody." I realized that I'm leaving nothing behind to identify me to the future world. I have nothing of value. I've done nothing of consequence. I've had no fifteen minutes of fame. I'm not a Margarent Thatcher or a Mother Teresa or even a Cleopatra (thank goodness). I wondered what kind of legacy I'd like to leave and for the life of me, I can't think of a single thing I'd want to be known for, remembered for. Bravery. Faith. Bitchiness. I don't know.
Then, it dawned on me. I don't really care if I'm remembered here on Earth. The notariety of earth is nothing to the rewards of Heaven. I have sinned so greatly that I know I don't deserve Heaven, but I pray daily that I'll be allowed admittance. That Jesus knows my true heart and he still loves me. I want my white robe. I want the chance to bow before Christ. I realized that is the only goal I should have here on Earth, is finding favor with God, loving Jesus, doing what I need to do to secure my place in Heaven and those of my family and friends by witnessing to them and talking about what God has done in my life. It's what Jesus wanted, at the Ascension, he told his disciples to go forth and spread the good news, the Gospel.
Now, this is going to be a difficult task in my family. Most of my friends are already church going, God fearing Christians, but my family...they don't seem to see the urgency, the importance of salvation....I wouldn't totally call them atheists, but...let's just leave it at that. I have my work cut out for me. And I pray that I am up to the task.
I'm currently working on numbers 4,5, & 6 of my resolutions - Of course, you can see I still have my foul mouth, and it remains to be seen if I'll make the 5K or not - but here's hoping I don't see the insides of a hospital in 2014.
Happy New Year to all my readers, friends and family. And in making your resolutions, I hope you find out what legacy you want to leave and how you want to exit this earth into the afterlife.
Much love and respect!